Happy New Year Everyone!! As we all know, the New Year brings our attention back to goals goals goals and more goals. New ones for the new year or revising ones from the past. 

In the past making goals has been a fairly straight forward experience for me. However this time round, for whatever reason, I have struggled to identify what my goals are for this year. The last few weeks have been rife with confusion and indecision about what I actually want. Obviously then my New Year is doomed, because if I don't know what I want then neither I nor the universe can conspire to help me get it right..!?

Then I hear this from Robin Sharma:

"Confusion is nothing more than growth unfolding"

This was an aha moment for me, where I realised that actually the nature of confusion is very similar to failure. Confusion, just like failure is considered a negative thing. But if we look at confusion similar to failure, though a lense on growth, its much easier to be kind and compassionate towards ourselves and our process.

We spend so much of our time worrying and thinking about what the right decision is or what the next best step is, especially when our options and choices are abundant. Though often, thinking just amplifies our fears and doubts.

At the end of the day, as my favourite expression by Marie Forleo states: "Clarity comes from engagement not thought". This is especially true as I look back on all the things I did achieve and the many more things that I thought I would achieve but didn't. Or how often theoretically an idea seemed good but when I engaged with it I realised the gaps. Clarity comes form engaging whole heartedly in what you are experiencing. This includes engaging fully in your confusion just as much as acting on it. 

This has given me a whole another understanding of trusting, engaging and being aware of the process. A new way of relating to that expression, its the journey not the destination. As it is the journey that is always the memorable part, and the destination is always evolving.

So here's to a 2018. Even if you don't know what you want for it, because you know what, as you engage with it, it will get clearer. And you will figure it out.

"The only way to have the experience is to have the experience" - Seth Godin.

With Lots of love and a massive splash of joy
Your creative curiosity advocate.



Hi Everyone! Here goes blog #4. I am loving counting these blogs. Especially, as until now I have never blogged anything in my life! So with every blog I get out, it’s a “Yay! I made it through another one!” This feeling of counting and making it through another piece of work has carried over in a project I have been working on for the last 80 days! The 100 days project. It’s a project where you consistently participate in and document a creative activity for 100 days. Its open to anyone for all kinds of projects! And I have made it to day 80 now!! Woop Woop!!

It is something I have wanted to do for many years but lets face it, the idea of creating something everyday for 100 days is pretty frikin daunting. I think this time it actually manifested because the idea was simple and easily manageable. So what was the idea? If you have been following my blog posts so far, you might be aware that I am an Elizabeth Gilbert fan girl! She does these amazing podcast series called magic lessons. These are the bomb! I highly recommend them for everybody! In one of the episodes she features an incredibly eloquent poet Mark Nepo. Something he says in this episode just blew my mind and stuck to me like sweet sugary goodness! He said:

“ We often get told be a noun, but the vitality of life is in staying a verb”

MMMMMHHHMMMM. PREACH! We are so conditioned to identify our self in labels, when really, life is about staying in action. I wonder what our thoughts, actions, conversations with ourselves and others would look like if instead of aspiring to become for eg. a designer. We aspired to express, to create, to heal, to inspire. The possibilities from this would be so much more exciting! So I started asking different people this question. “If you aspired to be a verb, what verb would that be?” Then I would document and present those verbs as beautifully as possible everyday for 100 days. You can check them out at www.100daysproject.co.nz/projects/100-days-2016/curiously-creative-953

Now I must admit this still wasn’t as simple as I thought it would be initially. Collecting 100 verbs from 100 actual people is a mission in itself. We are so not used to thinking of ourselves in verbs that it took most of us aaages to think of one or two or 3. So while 80% of the verbs so far are based on real people answers, some are just randomly picked verbs that I liked. Oh well, whatever! They are still verbs right!? If I treated it like an exact science I wouldn’t have made it to day 80. This is where having to just get on with whatever I had and not being a perfectionist about it was the biggest creative lesson for me. Like our girl Elizabeth Gilbert puts it “Done is better then good”

If you don’t think you will get the chance to listen to the magic lesson episode with Elizabeth gilbert and Mark Nepo. I will leave you with these beautiful words of his.

“Keep doing what brings you alive. The best we can do is cast seeds. You wont know which ones are going to sprout, which ones will have rain come on them, sun come on them, but just to get back to work. The work is staying in conversation with the sanctity of life. Immerse yourself wholeheartedly. Not from a space from doing excellent work. Be devoted to keep growing. It hears not to be heard and not to be seen and more deadly to not to hear and see."

With Love and a massive splash of joy

Your Creative Curiosity Advocate. 

Ps. We do still have 20 days left! So if there are any verbs you would like to see for your own pinboard, that aren’t already up. Just post a comment under the facebook post and I will try my best to include them. Heres is the link for them. www.100daysproject.co.nz/projects/100-days-2016/curiously-creative-953

Pps. Below is that inspiring podcast I mentioned above. 
- Magic Lessons Ep. 204: "Who Gets To Decide Whether You're A Legitimate Artist?" featuring Mark Nepo





Hi everyone! Welcome to blog#3! Today I share one of my experiences with the ‘P’ word. One of the biggest buzzwords, and also a word of dread. That word. PURPOSE. 

In the midst of figuring out what my thing was, I got invited to a wonderful workshop organised by my lovely friend Keri Clarke and her mentor Peleg Top. As we were wrapping up the session, Peleg asked us this “What question do you have, that if you had the answer to, it would change your life? “ and ofcourse you can guess what I asked! “WHAT IS MY PURPOSE!??” Peleg then asked me what I THOUGHT my purpose was. In that moment of pressure, without even knowing what it meant yet, I blurted out 2 words that came to mind. And that was Joy and Healing.

Peleg’s next response was something so simple, organic and clear in its nature that it shifted everything for us all.

He said “I think we all share a common purpose, but that purpose gets articulated differently from person to person based on each of our talents, gifts and who we are. Our soul. But at the core, we all share a similar purpose, and that in my opinion is to love. My purpose it to love. How I do it, is unique to me based on my experiences. If your purpose is to love and you want to do it through bringing people joy and healing, that is awesome. What does that look like specifically for you? Are you actually practicing that in everything that you do? If that is a purpose you can connect to, what does a purpose of love mean to you and look like for you?


This gave me immense relief, immediate clarity and reassurance.

Immense relief, because it turned out I already have a purpose. It was simply to love through joy and healing. I did not really need to quantify, explain or write a bio beyond that.

Immediate clarity, because based on how I identified with that purpose, I was able to look at the various things I had going and filter them through what allowed me to experience and share more love, joy and healing. It gave me the courage to let go of things and narrowed down my list very quickly.

Reassurance, that it was okay to change direction and I don’t have to figure out or nail a career to practice that purpose. I could be practicing it in all aspects of my life. In the way I honour and look after myself, figure out what’s important to me, improve my relationships, improve my conversations, interact with strangers. Pretty much how I show up to everything I do. Easier said then done right! ;) Definitely the work of a lifetime!

So really things that I learnt and have to keep reminding myself of every now and again is that:

1. My purpose can be just a word or two or a feeling. Does not have to be a well executed bio.
2. My purpose doesn’t have to be unique to me but is unique to how I practice it
3. There is ultimately only one purpose. To see, and do from a place of love.
4. Overthinking is not my friend!
5. Spontaneous moments of combustion = Clarity!

So what does operating from a place of love look and feel like for you?

With love, light and a massive splash of joy

Creative Curiosity Advocate

Ps. You can find out more about the wonderful people I mention in this post and how they are following their creative curiosities below. :)

Peleg Top - www.pelegtop.com
Keri Clarke - www.heroines.co.nz